Trusting God hasn't been easy for me but it has been totally worth it.
Why is trusting God so difficult? Why is it that we can trust our parents, believe our friends, pastors but when it comes to God, trusting becomes a problem?
Like most people, I have had my moments when life was great and everything was going well. In those moments, trusting God came easy. Who wouldn't want to rely on someone when that person is clearly working things out in your favor?
The problem started as soon as challenges appeared. I noticed that trusting God was nothing in the good times but somehow I couldn't find it in me to trust Him when I was broke, sad, depressed or just going through a rough patch. Immediately a new challenge came up, I would go back to worrying and thinking of everyone else but God to help me out.
How God is teaching me to trust Him
This continued for many years until something crazy happened. Last year, I was terribly broke, so broke that I didn't have money to get home after work. I had known this was going to happen, had even tried to stop but nothing had worked so when this day finally came, I was a worried mess looking for a way out.
On this fateful day, I was in my seat freaking out when I got an unexpected call from my mum. After exchanging pleasantries, she asked, 'Inem, is everything okay?' Not wanting to bother her with my 'wahala', I replied, 'Yes, mummy, I'm good.' Her response left me speechless.
She said she was calling because her colleague had dreamt about me. She told me the colleague had seen me in his dream pacing around, worrying about something and that God had told him to tell my mum to tell me to relax.
Note- I barely know this guy, he didn't even know my name, so why would God disturb this poor guy's sleep just to get me to relax? Hearing this blew my mind. Who am I that God would care this much about me and my wahala? This is not the first time I have seen God's work in my life but this particular experience kept me stunned for a while.
This experience started the slow, but gradual process of trusting God. It showed me that God really does love and care about me. Now anytime I am tempted to freak out, I remind myself to relax and trust God who is able and willing to do exceedingly above all I could think to ask (Ephesians 3:20). Besides, I don't want him to bother someone with another dream because of small me and my wahala.
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Why we should trust God above all others
This experience may have started the trust process but it isn't the only reason I trust God. Who better to trust than someone who is the definition of goodness, never lies, who promises to never leave me or forsake me?
Through this process, I saw God's love, His heart as a Father who simply wants His daughter, moi, to rest in His care. I am fortunate enough to have a human father who really loves me and I know he would do anything to help me. He is just a man, a flawed human being like myself, if I can trust and rely on his love, why shouldn't i do the same with God?
Matthew 7: 11- "So if you who are evil know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!"
I now trust God because I know without a doubt that He loves me and wants the best for me. I can relax because I know He thinks good thoughts towards me and I know His plans for me are way better than mine could ever be.
I trust Him because I know better. I know life is better when I partner with Him versus when I, small, limited me, try to do everything by myself. "He who trusts in himself is a fool. . ." (Proverbs 28:26).
Why worry and stress out over life when I can trust and rely on someone greater and better - God.